whenever life hits me hard i freeze.
i can't do anything
i can't become productive.
i just want to run away. i like running away. it's easier.
which is weird, i'm a fighter i think.
i'm not sure what i really am. actually. i don't paint. i don't take photographs, i don't dance, i don't sing or play a guitar. i'm not a writer or that book smart. i'm not into running, or skiing, or swimming or biking. i dont' exercise enough. every time i find something that i do enjoy i never get around to doing anything about it.
i went to school over a year ago and haven't worked in the job that i got educated in. i don't think i'm good enough to get a job for some reason.
i haven't even looked, because i can't write an resume.
i sleep all day and do nothing all night.
and then i tell ppl to do something with their lives.
ha.
what am i good for?
i'm a hear breaker. i can't keep a guy around for more than a few months.
and my health is always holding me down.
or i'm letting it. i kinda rely on my health problems. use them as a crutch.
and i always say, if this wasn't happening i could do something. or i'll work out tomorrow.
ugh. stuck stuck stuck.
You're wrong. You are a writer. You are (book) smart. You do take photographs (way more than me). You love to dance. You sign often. You're not a heart breaker, you're a heart opener; you make others' hearts sing. You are good enough, more than good enough. You're not who or what you think you are. You're more amazing and beautiful than your ego will ever know. And you have tremendous gifts to share with humanity, and that's why you are here in this life.
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