Friday, February 17, 2012

Lavender Moon

I feel like on of the luckiest ladies in the word right now. The funny thing is that i'm not lucky, i'm just taking advantage of my skills and using them to my advantage. and trying to be the best person i can be, and that creates the most beautiful reality. 

I'm starting my own body boutique. It's called Lavender Moon. My best friend and I along with another beautiful lady are opening this boutique together. I'm going to be doing waxing, and eventually bridal makeup along with facials. I am going to use what i went to school for and make tons of money and play and surf and be happy. 

My mother is sick. It's sad. and its reality and it doesn't have to keep me from living my life. my life is mine. i can love her. and care for her. and i don't have to be held back because of her choices in life. 

I am me. 

Something that i've really enjoyed and continue to read daily is this...

“I prayed for change, so I changed my mind.
I prayed for guidance and learned to trust myself.
I prayed for happiness and realized I am not my ego.
I prayed for peace and learned to accept others unconditionally.
I prayed for abundance and realized my doubt kept it out.
I prayed for wealth and realized it is my health.
I prayed for a miracle and realized I am the miracle.
I prayed for a soul mate and realized I am the One.
I prayed for love and realized it’s always knocking, but I have to allow it in.”

- Jackson Kiddard

Monday, February 6, 2012

single

A friend told me recently something that really made me look at myself with a different point of view. It also made me look at the opposite sex in a alternative way.
My belief is that my whole surroundings and life are created with with intentions and manifestation. If i sit around and complain and focus on the negative, then more negative happens, and if i totally focus on all the positive and love my life and all the blessings i have, then more good comes of it.

I asked my friend if they where seeing anyone, and they responded. "not right now, i'm working on creating in my self what i want in a partner. "
That hit hard.

It makes total sense. To attract the right person and the best person possible for me, i have to create that in myself.
example being
if i want someone successful, i need to become successful.
if i want someone with who loves themselves and gives to others and is charming and thoughtful and beautiful and kind and sweet and loving and supportive and active and hikes and bikes and swims and surfs and loves the land and gardens and is creative and loves to travel and is strong and patient and a "do er" and helps the community and works out and prays and does ceremony and dances and drums and plays the guitar. and is mostly sober and has no addictions and is close to the Creator, and is finically stable and is open minded and is emotionally stable and is a conscious human being, and is stable and doesn't judge and plays and works hard and supports themselves and the people around them.
I have to be all those things.
and more
i cannot sit around and blame things on other people and judge the guys in my life. i have to work on myself :)
I <3 myself!

Natasha Bedingfield - Single

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

words of the day

we learn wisdom, from failure, much more than from success. We often find out what will do, by finding out what won’t do. and she who never made a mistake, never made a discovery. Don’t look back, stay in the new. What’s regret going to do? stay in the now. Better with the new, cause the only thing constant is change and change is destiny

Mumford and Sons - Little Lion Man w/lyrics