Me?

I... Am
A lover
A dreamer
A loud mouth
I tend to wear my heart all over my body instead of just my arm.
I am bossy
I am insecure
I'm beautiful
A wanna be
A flirt
A girl turning into a woman
Afraid
Scared
Strong
Bright
Cheerful
Cloudy
A stoner
A student
A crafter
A jeweler
A artist
A snake
Jewpy
Happy
Sad
Alone
Excited
Positive
Stubborn
Free
ALIVE
Healthy
Whole
In control
Balanced
Sexy
Fun
Funny
I am me. And that should be good enough.

My little girl is sad.

I feel like a lost little girl. Confused, alone and frightened. I have this deep boiling anger welling up inside of my chest. This world makes me so sad. This country I call home I have no pride in. From mass murder of the natives to black slavery to pointless wars, what is there to be proud of? What do I stand for? Who am I? I honestly couldn't tell you. I can't figure it out myself. I meet boys and men and some I let close and some I'm scared of. Some I'm infatuated with. Some I'm in love with, (very few get that title.) some I learn to despise and some I have a lifetime of regrets.
Who am I?
How can I help this world?
How can I find the partner who I can get past the honeymoon faze with?
Should I go to college? Or go sleep in the cold rainy concrete streets and protest this fucked up world? Knowing my anger I'll probably get thrown in jail and then what good am I?
How can I put up my boundries without hurting anyone?
Can I learn to be more positive, patient, happy, mature, wise and without regret?
This past year I've had more regret that I can remember ever having in my whole life.
Am I still in love with you? I've thought this whole time I was, then hearing u could be with someone new made me possibly change my heart.
Maybe.
I'm scared to see you. I don't think I could choke anything out, I haven't a clue what to say or how to act. I don't know if i can be your friend. have u forgotten me?
And don't even get me started on my mother. Last time we spoke she said she didn't want to see me when I returned home. Why am I going back then? Why is my soul chained to someone I feel complete distance from? How would I feel if she died tomorrow?
In all honesty my life has been pretty amazing the past few months and when I look ahead with a realistic mind set my future is so bright I need shades!
Just a moment.
Moments happen. And that's ok.
I'm afraid of the unknown and I don't like it when I'm not in control of my whole world within my own vision.
Why is pms so annoying?
Haha
I wish I had some sexy, strong, kind arms to hold me while I try to sleep.
And yes I still love you. And that scares me.

They say

The best way to get over a lover is to find a new one...
Not sure if that's true.
Three weeks.