i seriously have a problem.
this problem i am starting to find out isnt just mine though. other people in this world do have it.
my problem is. i never can be happy anywhere.
i've been here two months and now i'm trying to figure out where to go next.
i love it here. don't get me wrong. it's just spendy. and i have debt. and that debt feels like a ball and chain around my ankle holding me down. i don't want debt anymore.
how about australia?
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
writers block
in my head i always have these amazing things to write on my blog and then when i actually log on and get here i forget all about what i was going to say.
unfortunately it is happening right now.
unfortunately it is happening right now.
Monday, January 24, 2011
"school"
So my school, if i'd dare to call it that is nothing like your typical educational schooling.
Every morning consists of half an hour of meditation fallowed by some sort of awareness practice.
Awareness usually consists of staring into each others eyes and talking about deep emotional things.
Then we do some sort of bodywork practice or learn about the bones and muscles.
Then lunch. Sitting in the sunshine. hanging out with classmates.
Then the afternoon consists of exchanging massage.
Life sounds soo hunky dory right?
Gosh I wish.
:-)
But I am grateful for school.
It's wonderful.
Every morning consists of half an hour of meditation fallowed by some sort of awareness practice.
Awareness usually consists of staring into each others eyes and talking about deep emotional things.
Then we do some sort of bodywork practice or learn about the bones and muscles.
Then lunch. Sitting in the sunshine. hanging out with classmates.
Then the afternoon consists of exchanging massage.
Life sounds soo hunky dory right?
Gosh I wish.
:-)
But I am grateful for school.
It's wonderful.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
pacific center for bodywork and awareness.
Is beautiful.
Wow this school is magical actually. and i've only been there for three days. I know it's going to get better each week.
We are learning how to be in the present. how to understand our bodies and what they are doing and telling us so we can be conscious and present with the client during a massage.
The school is wonderful, and i'm soo blessed to be going to it. but i also think it's not for everyone. it's not your generic massage program. The student must be very open and willing to learn and explore emotions along with learning how to give a good massage. It definitely teaches a person to think out of the box. so far i love it!
We start out by mediating for a half hour in the morning. i love that part.
It's really hard for me sometimes to write down an experience in words. I feel like this program is something that no one will understand truly. you'll just have to be there.
My mother is arriving on tuesday. i'm really excited to see her.
I love the rain here. i've always thought i hated rain. but no in fact i enjoy it, but only when it is warm rain.
This island is so magical. everyone here is connected in some deeper level and i'm soo blessed to be here, and smart. :) I'm glad i made the decision to leave everything behind and create a new life in paradise.
Wow this school is magical actually. and i've only been there for three days. I know it's going to get better each week.
We are learning how to be in the present. how to understand our bodies and what they are doing and telling us so we can be conscious and present with the client during a massage.
The school is wonderful, and i'm soo blessed to be going to it. but i also think it's not for everyone. it's not your generic massage program. The student must be very open and willing to learn and explore emotions along with learning how to give a good massage. It definitely teaches a person to think out of the box. so far i love it!
We start out by mediating for a half hour in the morning. i love that part.
It's really hard for me sometimes to write down an experience in words. I feel like this program is something that no one will understand truly. you'll just have to be there.
My mother is arriving on tuesday. i'm really excited to see her.
I love the rain here. i've always thought i hated rain. but no in fact i enjoy it, but only when it is warm rain.
This island is so magical. everyone here is connected in some deeper level and i'm soo blessed to be here, and smart. :) I'm glad i made the decision to leave everything behind and create a new life in paradise.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
the first page is quite refreshing.
Class was
Brilliant
Enspiring
Refreshing
New
Wonderful
Beautiful.
A whole new outlook on life.
I met some beautiful people inside and out.
I feel so blessed to be here.
Every person on this island inspires me and is welcoming, warm, friendly and open.
it's a wonderful home.
what other place in the US do people hug you when they meet you and kiss you on the cheek?
If you know of some place please tell me.
Sweet dreams world.
Brilliant
Enspiring
Refreshing
New
Wonderful
Beautiful.
A whole new outlook on life.
I met some beautiful people inside and out.
I feel so blessed to be here.
Every person on this island inspires me and is welcoming, warm, friendly and open.
it's a wonderful home.
what other place in the US do people hug you when they meet you and kiss you on the cheek?
If you know of some place please tell me.
Sweet dreams world.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
pages are turning.
Tomorrow is the beginning of a new chapter in my life, or it could possibly be a beginning to a new book.
I have heard so many reviews of this school i'm going to. But i am quite sure that each year is a different experience and each class is a different mixture and each student takes their own lesson out of it.
I am not sure what i am going to get from it but i am going into it with an open heart and ready for anything. I assume a family will be made after six months and a new outlook on this world.
this island is magical. every day blows my mind and ever inch is just as beautiful as the inch before it. the people are friendly and open and welcoming and sweet. all beautiful and tanned and in shape. i love it here. i'm home. if u want to see me soon you might have to take a little vacation, cause i don't plan on leaving here for quite some time.
only downfall is it is quite expensive. money seriously jumps out of your wallet quite easily. But i know i can find a good way to make a living doing what i love. there is a lot going on.
I have decided that turtles are amazing and i am in love with them.i saw my first turtle the other day while snorkeling and i was in awe. i love them they are amazing creatures. :-)
I'm not really in the mood for writing. happy week.
I have heard so many reviews of this school i'm going to. But i am quite sure that each year is a different experience and each class is a different mixture and each student takes their own lesson out of it.
I am not sure what i am going to get from it but i am going into it with an open heart and ready for anything. I assume a family will be made after six months and a new outlook on this world.
this island is magical. every day blows my mind and ever inch is just as beautiful as the inch before it. the people are friendly and open and welcoming and sweet. all beautiful and tanned and in shape. i love it here. i'm home. if u want to see me soon you might have to take a little vacation, cause i don't plan on leaving here for quite some time.
only downfall is it is quite expensive. money seriously jumps out of your wallet quite easily. But i know i can find a good way to make a living doing what i love. there is a lot going on.
I have decided that turtles are amazing and i am in love with them.i saw my first turtle the other day while snorkeling and i was in awe. i love them they are amazing creatures. :-)
I'm not really in the mood for writing. happy week.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Blessed.
So today i gratefully found a place to live! the house is wonderful. full of lively fun people and children. i have my own large room with bamboo floors, fully furnished, my own bathroom and bedroom entrance, along with a balcony. :-) i'm soo happy. all for only $400 a month! wow i couldn't ask for anything better! soo blessed!
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
the high life
today. i saw the island of Kauai in a different perspective today. A wonderful, beautiful amazing perspective.( not that the island wasn't all of those before.) I got the opportunity to go out on a private plane tour of the island. a friend of mine is a pilot and he got me on this plane last minute! it as an hour trip overlooking the whole island. i was speechless the whole time. i felt as though it wasn't real. i had to keep pinching myself to make sure that it was real and i wasn't dreaming. this island is magical. i'm so blessed to be here. also freaking smart! :-) a wonderful new home.
they always say that home is where the heart is. i guess i need to focus on that when i'm being impatient on the whole finding a place to reside thing. i am home, i just dont have the comforts of a bed and space of my own. it will happen i just have to believe it. and be patient.
Patient Jenny!
but school starts monday! i want a home by then! arrrrgHhhhhhhh
the house i'm staying in from the air. such a beautiful stop. i'm so blessed.
the little plane i got to go on!
beautiful water falls around the whole island.
part of the na pali coast.
they always say that home is where the heart is. i guess i need to focus on that when i'm being impatient on the whole finding a place to reside thing. i am home, i just dont have the comforts of a bed and space of my own. it will happen i just have to believe it. and be patient.
Patient Jenny!
but school starts monday! i want a home by then! arrrrgHhhhhhhh
Sunday, January 2, 2011
The year of the metal rabbit.
Life is interesting, hard, frustrating, exciting, new wonderful and always goes on. this is a new year. new beginnings. new start. new start for me. I only wish i could be in my new home, but patience is key in this new year. learning to be patient. not so stubborn, and working on myself.
2010 was a year of confusion, exhaustion, trying new things and learning everything the hard way.
I'm ready for a home. I'm ready to stay in one place for a while. to have a garden. to settle down for a bit. not forever, but for a bit. i need it. i'm physically, emotionally, spiritually and mentally exhausted.
I have no idea how many different floors and couches and beds and mats i have slept on in the past year. i could never figure it out if my life depended on it.
i'm ready to sleep in the same spot every night.
i need to learn to live in the moment. i'm always thinking in the future. it's not a good habit.
i cannot wait for school to start! 10 more days!
I want a home.
and a job.
i'm want to be more "normal"
done being a nomad.
This is what i read about aries in the year of the metal rabbit
"For Aries, the year 2011 of the white metal rabbit will not be boring or useless. On the contrary, Aries would achieve positive results within a short time, if they will direct all efforts in those areas that at this stage are important parts of their earthly existence with determination. They need to tell themselves that the time of confusion and disorder is behind and then their life in the new 2011 will immediately begin to change for the better."
that sounds hopeful.
Kauai is gorgeous. wonderful. i love it. i do not want to be any place else. besides this warm, breezy, coconut filled island.
i'm excited to meet my new family. my massage school family. :-)
aloha, goodnight and happy new year!
2010 was a year of confusion, exhaustion, trying new things and learning everything the hard way.
I'm ready for a home. I'm ready to stay in one place for a while. to have a garden. to settle down for a bit. not forever, but for a bit. i need it. i'm physically, emotionally, spiritually and mentally exhausted.
I have no idea how many different floors and couches and beds and mats i have slept on in the past year. i could never figure it out if my life depended on it.
i'm ready to sleep in the same spot every night.
i need to learn to live in the moment. i'm always thinking in the future. it's not a good habit.
i cannot wait for school to start! 10 more days!
I want a home.
and a job.
i'm want to be more "normal"
done being a nomad.
This is what i read about aries in the year of the metal rabbit
"For Aries, the year 2011 of the white metal rabbit will not be boring or useless. On the contrary, Aries would achieve positive results within a short time, if they will direct all efforts in those areas that at this stage are important parts of their earthly existence with determination. They need to tell themselves that the time of confusion and disorder is behind and then their life in the new 2011 will immediately begin to change for the better."
that sounds hopeful.
Kauai is gorgeous. wonderful. i love it. i do not want to be any place else. besides this warm, breezy, coconut filled island.
i'm excited to meet my new family. my massage school family. :-)
aloha, goodnight and happy new year!
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