I have no idea who reads this blog. if anyone even does. but if you do. thanks.
Life is crazy shitty right now. I know I know. you think im living the life because i'm in Kauai and it's 80 degrees all day. and i can eat fresh fruit and go to the beach and such. which is amazing, don't get me wrong.
but my home world is crashing down pretty fast.
I have dug myself a huge whole and i can't climb out alone.
My mom is sick. like seriously has some health issues. real ones. she came here to heal two weeks ago and everything has been going wrong for us.
I'm in school, massage school to be exact. i also have some things in my body that i'm working on. which is making it very difficult for me to give massage because of physical pain.
which also makes it hard to work.
school and work, probably impossible.
this island sucks the cash right out of you, fast.
a saying i've heard about Israel is, "if you want to become a millionaire in Israel, go there with ten million."
i'd say it's the same here.
along with that, i've had nothing but roommate drama and trying to find a place to live is nearly impossible. many folks are homeless because a lot of the landlords on this island are pretty hard to deal with.
i have debts up to my ears, along with school, rent, car insurance. the works. basically can't pay my bills.
my mom is way to ill to work and we really just need a home.
and with my health stuff i have no energy and need to sleep all day . and we both don't have health insurance because we live in a country in which they don't take care of their people.
i am a loving daughter and want to be a support for my mom while she's going through this really rough time in her life. but i'm not much help in my condition. i'm feeling like i may have to drop out of school because of finances and health reasons. which sucks.
but guess what? i'm only 21. i have years to go to school, but i may not have years to be a good loving daughter. and i may. i really don't know. but for right now. i don't know what i'm going to do. we don't have anywhere to go. we don't have a home. and don't have that much money.
so if you have any ideas. any way of helping. or want to know more about my situation.
please contact me. 208-290-6640 or heartsong_07@hotmail.com
of the people who know me well. you know i'm usually pretty tough and independent. but I'm putting my pride to the side for a while and expressing that i really really need help right. in any way you can think of.
thank you. please find it in your heart somewhere that we're not doing well and have no direction to go.
Take a moment of silence for peace of mind. Breathe in love and positivity, breathe out negativity.. stress, doubt. Allow all thoughts of worry to melt right out of your mind. Then replace the space with empowerment and a knowing that everything is going to be okay.
ReplyDeleteKnow that the Universe loves you as long as you keep loving yourself. Once you're clear on when to take a leap, do it without regrets.. and the safety net of the Universe will be waiting to catch you.
There's only so much one person can do. This is primarily to take care of the self first, with rest, peace of mind, time alone when needed, and working step by step on one's individual goals. Know that once you are feeling balanced and at peace, the ability to give and help others expands immensely.
The world is not yours to carry on your shoulders. Take each moment for what it is.. stay present and things will pan out beautifully, exactly how they should.
From Kristin Fontana Astrological Starcast for week of Feb. 9:
ARIES [Mar 21 - Apr 19]
It doesn’t matter what is going on in or around you or how hard life may seem in a certain arena of your life, the truth remains that Jupiter, our most benevolent benefactor is in your sign and he is in it with all his celestial might. You have from now until the end of May to launch your deal or unveil the next level of your Soul’s expression. You are in the midst of initiating a brand new twelve year cycle as I may have shared previously, but this fact begs repeating. You have all the influence in the world to attract whatever it is that you need to elevate your station here. Jupiter also rules truth, so if you have not been seeing things clearly or chasing after the wrong thing, your luck has arrived. I encourage you to reflect on these words - It is not about ‘what am I supposed to want’ it is now about ‘what do I really want’? Break free from an old mode and trust the liberation that is having its way with you.
Radical is truly beautiful!
Love ya sista!
<3 Bailey
Where did you dig this huge hole? I read in The Celestine Prophecy that underground homes are gonna be the new thing. It might just be the perfect living situation, and you can be the landlord too. If it's big enough, you can rent other dugouts as well.
ReplyDeleteOk, I'm gonna get real with you. You are a blessing, and although I can't understand the pain and suffering you're going through right now...I know you are incredibly, incredibly, incredibly gifted. Sending a big hug your way ;)
Excited to see your amazing contributions to humanity too ;)
I read your blog btw
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